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Darkness that Shadows the light;

Divine wings of memory

Created on 2003-03-10 16:07:01 (#941578), last updated 2009-10-26

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Name:	Xebi
Birthdate:	1987-03-05
Location:	Exeter, United Kingdom
Website:	Deviant art

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Well I suppose I had better write a little something about me before you have to read the depressing emo rant i've written as my userinfo.
I'm 18 an I live in Exeter and I'm at Exeter college studying Photography, Classics, Japanese and Media.
I suppose it does say a little about me. I like to think things through a lot. I enjoy photography, reading, writing. I especially like reading books and I have set myself a target amount to read this year. I like music, J-pop. And talking to people online, basically. I'm starting to become interested in arts and crafts as well, making my own things.

BAH i did have a really strange bio up here but i thought i would change it so meh sue me. I'm a normal teenager often feeling crap and depressed and not really caring whether anyone is reading this or not. My entries are often random and pretty shit so you should just leave now instead of wasting two minutes reading this when you could of already moved onto the next probably dull thing you do to hopefully fufill your day. Most of the time i wouldnt be saying that but today has been a bad day for me and frankly i just dont give a shit. Why are you here reading everyones bio's? You think that if you find someone with a life more boring as yours it will make you seem more interesting? Well it doesn't so just give up and face the spotlight.

I stared across the blankness that was my home and wished I was someone else, everything was just too familiar, I needed to be somewhere different somewhere exciting and strange- this seems less likely to happen everyday.

Lets face it this is my life; I have tried to change, to be different each time failing miserably. I needed something to make me individual from everyone else, so that I would be noticed- oh god to be noticed how weird it sounds saying it. I read all these books about mysterious girls with freewill to guide them in there journey to find out some important quest in order to help them grow into the woman they are about to become. I have tried to do this, have strange interests like tornados and disagree with what everyone says, have my own opinion and be free. Collect strange things in little jars so that I seem weird but very grown up in my own way, its really a load of rubbish I cant do that no matter how much I try and pretend to be in some far off distant place the reality of the world comes suddenly looming back at me and I am there again looking out into the garden or some stretch of earth that never turns or ends, just a straight unending road leading me to the place that I had begun.

I wish I could close a book and pretend that what I said then as just a story a tale that has now been closed and placed onto a shelf never to be looked at again, but how untrue this is. I am stuck in a rut not knowing where I should be going or why I should be were I am, there are too many things missing from my life a lot of questions that will remain unanswered and shortly forgotten, I wish that life was like a film, a romantic comedy always ending with and they lived happily ever after. Just the same story over and over with the same happy ending. I feel like a young flower that has been withered by the bad weather around me, struggling to keep my head up near the sun feeling even less safe every time I stretch my neck. I wish I were a character in a book or in a cartoon or become an animal, anything other than my life. It is becoming such a practiced routine.

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60's, aim, alice elliot, anime, art, bed, beyblade, books, bracelets, breath of fire, buffy, buffy the vampire slayer, buttons, cadcaptors, cats, chobits, chocolate chip muffins, classics, clothes, cloud, comics, computers, conventions, corsets, costume, couches, crafts, cuddling, dancing, desperate housewives, digimon, digital monsters, disney, dragonball z, drawing, dresses, ebay, ee cunnings, enid blyton, fashion, ff, ffx, final fantasy 1, final fantasy 10, final fantasy 2, final fantasy 4, final fantasy 5, final fantasy 6, final fantasy 7, final fantasy 8, final fantasy 9, finalfantasy games, fires, flowers, frills, furcadia, furcadia., garters, geeks, glamour, grandia, hamtaro, handbags, harry potter, harry potter., heels, hellow kitty, hogwarts, hot chocolate, icons, j-pop, japan, japanese, japanese culture, japanese films, japanese music, kiki's delivery service, kingdom hearts, kisses, kittens, knitting, knitting needles, leon, letters, lipstick, literature, london, love, malorie blackman, manga, marilyn monroe, mary-janes, muffins, music, new york city, notes, otakon, painting, penpals, periapt, petticoats, photographs, photography, photos, pictures, pinstripes, poetry, princess mononoke, puddles, rain, reading, ribbons, roald dahl, role-playing, roleplaying, ron weasley, rp, rpg's, scarves, sex and the city, shadow, shadow hearts icons, sharon creech, shoes, shopping, shoujou-ai, shounen-ai, shrines, silver, skirts, sleep, soundtracks, spirited away, storms, studio ghibli, sun, tea, the underground, thunder, trains, travel, umbrellas, uniforms, utada hikaru, video games, wellies, yaoi, yuri, yuri hyuga

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	polaroid_void@livejournal.com
	tamashi no tete
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Schools:

West Exe Technology College - Exeter, England - Devon, United Kingdom (1998 - 2002)
Exeter College - Exeter, England - Devon, United Kingdom (2003 - present)

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